Wednesday, January 7, 2009


Should I or not?

Today, went to cwp with deva.. talk to her.. she was like against my decision.. she dun wan me to regret my decision later on.. but i told her that i do not have any feeling when i did not go.. i just felt normal.. however, i dun know whether this is wat i wan..

as i was walking back hm.. i keep thinking.. wat i really wan.. how come things turn this way.. how to let it go etc.. is it really possible to go back to the past? is it possible not to regret? from the way deva respone to my decision.. it shows that she regret her decision and she keeps telling me not to.. she keep asking me.. thought u like it alot and nw wat happen? how come suddenly made a decision like this..

she keeps telling me not too.. i told her.. why not she take my place and go for it.. she laughed.. haiz.. dun know lah.. today, also not very happy either.. hope to forget what heppen today.. so many things happen recently.. haiz..

moo told me that she asked the whole club to go for the WWW thing.. haiz.. i dun wan to go lor.. i hate to go out wif so many ppl.. i dun like the feeling of going out wif them.. not all.. i also asked moo whether what i did recently is it too much..

she say "as someone that knows u, i say slightly but you hv reasons bt to sum1 nt tt close, i think she/he will think it is unreasonable..." i kinda agree wif her.. me myself also think that wat i did recently is like kind of too much.. rmb wat happen after the chalet monday training.. that incident is still there.. cant forget bout it.. it is so hard to forget.. dun wish to rmb liao..

that all ba.. no mood to type liao..

♥ the last words are written at 4:09 AM