Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The last day of Year 2009!!

Last day of the year.. haiz.. The year pass damn fast.. going to end the second semester soon.. and a 10 weeks hoilday for me to have fun and find work.. cause dad wants me to go work instead of staying at hm and do nothing.. haiz..

today, also did nothing much.. just paint my house door wif mum.. hehe.. then stay at hm the whole day and slack all the way.. tml, mayb mayb meeting friend ba.. not too sure.. later then message her ba..

oh ya, i also wan to buy my earphone and wallet.. wan to get a new bag too.. but for nw i need money.. haiz.. sian..

This year has been a busy year ba.. take o'level result, go to poly, make new friends etc.. and this hoilday going to end soon too.. hope that next year will be a better year ba..

thanks girl for being there when i need someone to talk too.. and i think i complain to much to u liao ba.. hehe.. anyway, thanks..

hope that next year will be as fun as this year and i can forget all the bad memories.. and dun wish to rmb liao.. that all.. post pic another.. got some qing and moo weird pic.. hehe.. wanna post..

♥ the last words are written at 4:52 AM

Monday, December 29, 2008

29 Dec 2008

Today, I have a very bad feeling.. when i went out of my house, i forgot to bring something.. then when i went down,m i saw a women fainted.. haiz.. then went to meet moo.. then my earpiece spoilt.. sian.. need to buy new one.. then when we are walking to the sport complex, i fell and sprain my ankle.. hiaz.. then went to the shooting ground which was behind the carpark.. when i was walking to the road, forgot to look where i was walking.. i sprain my ankle again.. at the same place.. haiz.. so suay..

then went hm around 11 plus, going to be 12 noon, i think.. walk wif moo and we parted half way.. then went out wif my mum to buy things at woodlands checkpoint there.. damn sian lor.. dun know what to do.. they do their shopping and i just follow.. then they wants to go cwp to buy things.. hehe.. i didn follow.. my leg was in pain so just stay at hm..

oh ya.. thanks nick.. for giving the chirstmas card.. in reply to the message.. i will try not to be so emo and i know that u guys are there and will find u if i have problem.. hehe..

mayb thinking too much is not a good thing.. hehe.. that all..

♥ the last words are written at 5:28 AM

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

24 Dec 2008

nothing to do so just blog.. kinda sian.. today, i was suppose to go ya hui place and play mahjong.. but didn.. cause too tired liao.. woke up at 12 plus today.. just sleep and sleep till mum wakes me up.. today, also didn do much.. just slack till nw..

havent been for training for quite some time.. just dun feel that good to go liao.. this few days, i feel that when i dun go training i dun feel that bad.. dun need to face them and just keep avoiding.. mayb it is a good thing ba.. dun need to think that much and just be happy and dun care?

for nw i dun know wat to do.. just go through day by day ba.. or face it? i dun know.. dun feel like facing it.. if i face it, nitemare will come.. haiz.. since that incident.. i dun feel like going for training liao.. nw another incident happen.. OMG.. feel like dying man.. haiz..

see how when the time goes.. i miss the days before this two incident happen.. nothing to think about and can enjoy myself.. am i able to let it go? i dun know.. but will try.. hiaz..

going to watch my show liao.. hehe.. post pics another day ba.. got lots of pics to post.. hehe

♥ the last words are written at 6:36 AM

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Feeling down..

Avoid and avoid.. Is what I always do.. Mayb to me, it is a way to settle things? However, I hate to avoid but in the end I still avoid.. haiz.. I still feel bad over that thing.. but I dun know what to do.. eventhrough u say that u have forgiven me.. but I cant just forget about it at all.. How to treat as if nothing happen..

Mayb I should just let it be ba.. and not try to change anything.. I still feel weird.. Mayb it is best not to go back to the past and let it be as it is.. If I try to change, will it be the same as the past.. I dun think so ba..

Time.. need more time.. Mayb by the time, I forgot the matter.. will be the time, I disappear le ba.. Still not sure.. wat to do nw.. dun wish to quit but I still feel weird.. haiz.. hope that time will cancel the matter ba..

That all.. dun wish to talk liao.. somemore, today, didn go training.. another day for me to stop thinking liao.. hope that I can do it..

♥ the last words are written at 8:51 PM

Friday, December 19, 2008

20 Dec 2008

lots of things happen just this week.. the first week of the hoilday.. firstly, went for training on sat and so damn idiot.. haiz.. then went to vivo city the next day wif moo and qing.. it was damn boring.. then on monday went to buy things for the chalet.. on tuesday went for archery chalet.. went there wif jing, nick and jeremy.. kinda sian.. then slowly everyone come then have fun..

i do not wish to talk about the chalet things liao.. think till here ba.. just came back from vivo city.. went there wif moo.. kinda sian.. then we walk around vivo city.. and play wif water.. hehe.. then also chat wif her.. and ask for her suggestion on something..

i asked her whether she will be angry or lonely if we leave the club.. moo say yes.. this has become my consideration on what to do next.. so scared that my decision will affect lots of ppl.. like what happen during the chalet.. hate it man..

that all ba.. so damn tired liao.. so many things happen.. think i should just forget about everything.. and just give it all up ba.. how i wish this never happen.. how i wish everythings go back to how it was in the past..

After so much thinking, i have decided to take a break.. will go training but will not talk to anyone.. after training, go home and will not walk wif them to cwp anymore.. after puting down the bow and stuff, just walk away and not stay there.. I think I am able to give up everything liao.. Know that it is hard but will do it.. hope that everything will go back to how it was, mayb by that time, i will not choose to leave..

♥ the last words are written at 11:36 PM

Sunday, December 14, 2008

15 Dec 2008

Woke up at 7 plus.. cause brother wake me up.. haiz.. he keeps crying.. then just go and make him sleep again.. mum is tired.. then yesterday, dad just fly off to perth.. hehe.. he always go oversea for his work.. hiaz.. then nw using the com.. thought dad will be online.. haiz.. nope.. think his com dun have the msn ba.. hehe.. he was suppose to use brother account to chat wif us..

later going to shop for chalet food.. just nw i found out that the bbq pit is portable one.. must go rent from the shop.. haiz.. dun know sia.. think just make so wif it ba.. haiz.. hope that tml will be fun.. hehe.. i mean real fun.. hehe..

will post the blog wif the chalet pictures once the chalet is over and i got the pictures..hehe.. for nw i just blog the pictures we took yesterday at vivo city.. hehe.. i cant bluetooth the pictures into my labby.. think tml or another day ba.. haiz..

tml, going to chalet, gone for 3 days 2 nite.. hope that it will be fun.. went to buy food wif archery ppl.. kinda sian.. cause like just buy the things then have lunch then went hm to put the things.. then that the end of the day.. i have a feeling that my hp bill will go over this month.. last month the bill also go over the expected one.. haiz..

that all.. will try to update wif pictures asap.. once the chalet is over.. more pictures will be up.. hehe.. I have make up my mind liao.. I think I will do it.. dun know why but I just feel that I will do it.. eventhrough jing say dun.. I dun have the feeling of staying liao.. cant do it anymore.. that the end liao ba? haiz.. see how ba..

♥ the last words are written at 5:32 PM

Saturday, December 13, 2008

13 Dec 2008

Today, went for training.. in actual fact, i dun have the mood to shoot at all.. dun know why.. just cant concentrate at all.. dun even know wat am i doing.. haiz.. winnie help me but i didn listen to wat she say, i just hear and let it out.. one ear in then the other out.. hiaz. i dun know wat to do liao.. then i nearly cry during training.. dun even know wat to do.. i know that i am there but i am thinking about other things..

then went off at 4pmw if jing.. just wanna get my mind out of archery.. wish to take a long break but i know i cant.. dun know how to tell them.. hiaz.. i find it hard to control my emotion liao lor.. no matter, wat i do, i will cry.. haiz.. dun know sia.. can someone tell me?

i have a feeling that istill cant let go of the feeling of the competition.. wat happen then.. i think that i have not let it go at all.. and nw still trying to forget.. i dun know why.. but it is hard to do so.. how to let go? how to forgot? i'm not too sure.. i have never try to forgot and let go of somethings.. haiz..

that all ba.. dun wish to contiune liao.. later i cant control my emotion liao..

♥ the last words are written at 4:24 AM

Thursday, December 11, 2008

11 dec 2008

I read her blog.. I feel that we do not understand each other at all.. Sometime when we are together I dun even know what she is thinking lor.. sometime, I really wonder whether we understand each other anot? whether are we friends?

Sometime I really wonder whether we are friends anot.. Haiz.. I really enjoy her company and stuff but I feel that I always get the blame and stuff lor.. It is the same as in the past lor.. I always get the blame whenever everything goes wrong.. haiz.. I dun know lor..

Recently, I made one decision.. I feel that I will not regrate at all ba.. I think that this decision that I made is the onli one that I will not regrate at all.. I find life damn tiring liao.. How I wish to give it all up nw.. RITE NW.. haiz..

think that all nw ba.. dun feel like writing anything liao.. haiz..

♥ the last words are written at 4:03 AM

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

9 Dec 2008

Turn 17 today.. hehe.. quite happy ba.. hehe.. ^_^.. hehe.. Meet moo and deva in the morning.. hehe.. but kinda sian.. went to class to early liao.. hehe.. then si yun wish me happy bday.. hehe.. then receive cha and dad message.. hehe.. they wish me too.. hehe.. my uncle too.. hehe.. then meet qing to go for a thing.. sian lor.. the talk.. haiz.. luckily went back to class on time.. cause havent finish my work.. today, we did a TV show.. it was so fun.. hehe.. then ragish also wish me.. oh ya.. joy and jill also has the same bday as me.. hehe.. so fun.. then meet moo and qing to eat chicken chunks.. hehe.. long time didn eat wif qing liao.. cause.. dun wan to say.. hehe.. then she also wish me.. thought she forgot.. hehe.. that all ba.. then went to CWP to meet sis.. she brough me bday present too.. so nice of her.. hehe..





that the end.. forgot to take pic of the foods mum cook.. hehe.. ^_^.. thanks for the gift and wishes.. mucks.. hehe.. oh ya, meeting cha during chistmas eve.. hehe.. can have fun liao.. hehe.. post another day ba..

♥ the last words are written at 4:50 AM

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