Saturday, November 22, 2008


22 Nov 2008

Today, didn go.. i mean skip one day of training.. yesterday, told winnie that i not going for training.. then she ask me what happen.. haiz.. then she start asking me question and ... just answer her.. i dun know why, i just tell her but not everything.. >_<

hiaz.. dun wanna think liao.. she talk for so long.. i still didn change my mind of not going.. the reason that i dun wan to go is because of wat happen and another one is that i wan to rest.. how i wish to sleep forever and nv wake up.. in this manner i will not have any more problem and do not need to think that much.. hiaz..

lifes are like that.. so many things to think about so many things to do.. sian.. then went to find hui ping.. hehe.. i forgot that i am meeting her during the nite.. sian.. i chat wif winnie till i forgot about meeting her.. haiz.. so sori.. >_<

how i wish to sleep forever and ever.. >_<.. just feel sian so i blog.. nothing to do mah.. didn go training.. sian..hehe.. thanks winnie for helping me ba.. but i am still not sure what i should do..>_<

wanna to sleep forever and nv wake up liao.. giving up? or contiune? tell me ba..

♥ the last words are written at 2:59 AM

Thursday, November 20, 2008


21 Nov 2008

nw in class.. so sian.. onli got me and si yun.. hehe.. then decided to blog.. dun know why feeling really down today and dun wish to meet anyone.. i message moo in the morning.. she was the two idiot.. so i didn meet them.. i feel that mayb we should stop meeting in the morning ba.. i dun know why.. i told moo that i think that we should not meet in the morning liao.. she didn reply.. i agree wif si yun.. not to go sch wif ppl in the morning.. hehe.. cause in the morning, my mood can be very very de bad.. i dun know why.. recently my mood is so bad till me myself also hate it.. hiaz..>_<

she say that i must say out my feelings and she is not a mind reader.. i also know.. but how to say.. i feel that we are not close anymore and the friendship is going to end soon ba? mayb that me.. once we are not close, then that it.. the end.. i dun know how to say out my feelings ba.. this is me.. i hate to tell ppl how i feel.. so most friendship have a full stop due to this.. she wans me to share but is she going to be there to listen.. i dun think so ba..

mayb it will end.. just like that.. and a full stop is there liao.. >_<.. i feel that my post a bit weird.. think it is due to my bad mood ba.. hehe.. wen hua just came to class.. nw the class onli has three ppl.. hehe.. sian.. dun feel like typing liao.. think post another day ba.. and polite pics update another day.. i feel that i keep saying another day but dun know when is the day.. hehe

♥ the last words are written at 4:33 PM


20 Nov 2008

recently, i can get angry very easily.. just like that.. like on monday.. just one small thing and i get angry just like that.. and today when i walk to cwp wif moo and qing, and i dun know why.. i just walk on my own and my i walk very fast.. in the end, we went different way.. i dun know why.. it just happen like that.. just like that.. hiaz..

recently, i also feel that our friendship will end soon.. very soon.. i also feel very left out wif them liao.. no longer like last time.. like the way we went out together and stay back after sch and have fun.. and do RJ together.. it is gone liao..

i also feel that we do not have common topic anymore and i wish to take a break from it.. should i? whenever, we walked to sch together, i find that there's nothing to say and that all.. just walk to sch like that.. it is like we are just stranger walking to the same place.. that all..

should we end this friendship or contiune? i dun know wat to say liao.. just leave it to fate? or end the pain nw? @_@.. wat to do? no mood to post pic.. another day ba.. that all.. should i really end it just like that or find ways to contiune this friendship?

♥ the last words are written at 4:49 AM

Monday, November 17, 2008


17 Nov 2008

yesterday, went for TKO.. then we shoot and we win NP.. but we lose to NYP and ITE.. in the end we didn win anything.. kinda regret.. i dun know why but i am feeling better nw.. hehe.. my dad say nv mind.. can do better next year.. after the competition.. my feeling was not that well and then just walk off like that.. we all took the same train but i wan to be alone so when i got down at JE, i didn say "bye" to them and just walk off.. haiz.. then on the train towards woodlands i also just walk off and went to another side.. didn go wif jing and farhan.. i dun know why.. but i wan to be alone.. i do not wan ppl to be around me sia..

i think not many ppl will understand it ba.. haiz..

then went to sch today.. tired, sian plus no mood.. dun know how i get through the day.. jia wei, ask how was yesterday competition.. wth.. my mood was aready not that good due to yesterday and this morning and he ask me.. OMG.. when i talk, i almost cry lor.. idiot lor.. haiz.. then during second break, he pass me the thumbdrive and he say something again.. wth lor.. haiz..

then went hm after lesson.. didn meet anyone.. also dun feel like meeting.. even if meet also nothing to say.. the end.. haiz.. >_< recently, also no mood due to competition.. still angry myself..

that all ba.. >_<.. tired liao.. pic another day then upload ba..

♥ the last words are written at 3:10 AM